Most of my life, I have felt a responsibility to be a good person and an example to others. Most of the responsibilities I have in myself I feel as though they are self-inflected. One of the traits that I am trying to change about myself is people pleasing. I allowed people in my life to put a responsibility on me to be a leader to other kids. In doing this it took away from my own child hood.
Regret and disappointment in myself come to my heart and mind as I write these words. Responsibility can be either something that you put on yourself or others put on you. Maybe even different life situations cause someone to take upon responsibility in life. In for recent events in my life, I have taken upon the responsibility of being a blogger. Now, blogging is something in my life that I have done in my past.
When I was in high school, I started blogging for my journalism class/club. I enjoyed it so much that after I was done with the class I kept on blogging. When I entered college, my life was so consumed with college and the job I was working at the time, that I completely neglected my first blog. I lost my passion for writing and even reading. I became someone constantly worried about grades and people pleasing.
Eventually this mentally drained me. I started to not want to do my job, homework, and even hangout with friends. I was mentally exhausted. It’s good to know when to take a break and take responsibility for what I was doing to myself. I was neglecting self-care. I decided to take a semester off of college, change my degree program and I quit my job. I started to feel better about life. I mentally started taking mental health breaks. I started reading again, working out and eventually I started blogging.
When I started blogging again, I did not want to be like everyone else around me in the blogging community. I wanted to make my blog unique to me. Responsibility came over me to write about what I have been through in my life and share my story and encourage others. I came up with the idea of quotes or thoughts of the week. Every week, I write a short sentence or two about something I have been through and I write it in an encouraging way. Since doing this on my blog I have heard from multiple people who write to me thoughtful comments, direct messages, and email me letting me know how encouraged they have felt and how they look forward to my quotes or thoughts of the week.
With my quote or thought of the week blog series, I have asked others to share their favorite quote or thought of the week. I have had many bloggers share quotes that have encouraged them and inspired them to write thoughts of things that they have been through. Now I have a community of people who are inspired and who now inspire others. I took my regret and hurt and turned it into something that might encourage others. Responsibility has followed me throughout my life and I believe that it still will. I believe that with responsibility comes strength. It is a strength to know how to handle what you might be going through in life and how to handle it.
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Whatever life takes you, just enjoy your life. Think positive and be positive.
–Always look to the rising sky
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